The only decorations I have up this year are the cards I’ve received. They’re all taped to my door. I haven’t felt all that festive this season. Over at Fem Central they offered up the writing prompt for December of, “What don’t like about the holidays.” If you’re interested you can read what I wrote as posted on Wednesday.
In the past I’d hang decorations and trim my tree in an attempt to push away the bad feelings. This year I’ve decided there are no good feelings and no bad feelings. They are what they are and it’s important we accept them, feel all of them. If we keep repressing our feelings because they are “bad” they’ll just consume us. So, I’m going to allow myself to feel a little bit down, a little lonely. I’m going to embrace the sadness of missing my parents, brother, and sister because I know that sadness could never exist if I had never felt their love. It’s by loving them and knowing how they love me that this sadness is here.
This year I vow to take comfort in the peace this solitude brings me, feel the sadness of loss and separation, and celebrate the love of my family and friends.
Happy Holidays everyone! My the new year bring you many joys and lots of love.
